The timing of the rejection seems to suggest that I did not make it past the second round of cuts. For all I know, my application never made it past the grad school to the department.
This was also the school that would have kept me from having to move out of the region, whose campus I refused to visit or even drive by lest I jinx myself somehow.
I understand that their admissions are very, superfucking competitive, but still I wish I could know - what was it about my application that wasn't good enough?
One thing I now know that does not sit very well with me:
I am not one of the Best of the Best. :(